“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”

fairytale

photos by Rivi,
my favorite photographer :)

Courage

DOROTHY THOMPSON:
Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live.

ELEANOR ROOSEVELT:
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.

H. JACKSON BROWNE:
Don't be afraid to go out on a limb. That's where the fruit is.

HENRY JAMES:
Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.

JANE ADDAMS:
Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we often might win, by fearing to attempt.

MARILYN FERGUSON:
Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is a freedom.

SWEDISH PROVERB:
Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.

a dream

I walked through a forest alone and spent, yet slightly comforted by the quiet, gentle peace of nature. The great pines were crowded so densely together it seemed dusk at midday. Though I didn’t know where I was headed, I did not feel afraid, just exhausted and helpless. As I wandered toward my unknown destination I startled myself with the sound of twigs snapping beneath my feet. Eventually, I arrived at a small, murky brown pond, made beautiful only by the sharp reflection of the green foliage. The water was still as glass and dark, soothing as water can’t help but be. I sat on the dirt; despair doesn’t pay mind to the comforts of life; the earth was my friend. I found a stick and began to scratch markings beside me as I pulled my knees up to rest my chin. Sitting at the water’s edge, I gently touched it with the stick, sending mild yet far stretching ripples across the entire pond. I looked up and saw Jesus walking toward me. I tried to imagine what he would say. Would he scold me? Give me advice? There were no right words to fit the moment, no easy resolution to my heart’s dilemma. In my mind, I refused to open my heart to whatever he might say. Of course, he knew. He knew my heart better than I. He sat down beside me in the dirt, wrapped one arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his chest. We sat quietly without a single word. His actions said it all, “I love you and I am with you”. That’s all I could handle at that moment and he knew. He gave me all I could receive.

To the careless tongue

Who are you that you should meddle in my life?
You judge from a distance, your words cut like a knife.
You think you know me but haven’t a clue.
Why should I trust when juicy morsels you seek to chew?
Your lying tongue pleads innocent your case.
You try to justify, but the facts you can’t erase.
You’re oblivious to the wounds your gossip inflicts,
But hey I guess that’s how you like to get your kicks.
You of all people should have a tight reign on that tongue.
Your example to others...well, the damage has been done.
And, you crucify the innocent, slap on that scarlet letter.
Come on now _______ , you should know better.
I believe Jesus said
to do unto others...
Is this how you’d be treated
if you had your druthers?

hope for a new day

today i danced
today i laughed
today i basked in the fun and hope
of smiles and new friends

your joy and child-like enthusiasm lifted my spirit
as you twirled me around, life and hope returned
we laughed as we stumbled over each other's feet

your smile was contagious
your spirit flies high
i want it to carry me out of my pit
you are a drink of water to a parched soul

bittersweet freedom...

the pain in their eyes
the anguish in their cries
makes me want to lie
when they ask their "why's"
tell me we won't die
tell me by and by
the pain will subside
tell me we will laugh again
tell me all's not lost, we'll win
if you have to, tell me lies
i can't take their bitter cries
please no more good-byes

good-bye, my loves

I’m sorry, my love, that I had to go
I’d never choose to leave you, you must know
But god has plans we know not of
And I’ll surely be watching you from above.

I know you’ll feel empty for a while,
But think of me in His arms and smile,
Because my tears are forever gone
And the love we shared will live on.

I know you’re strong and will make it okay
God promised me he’d help you each day.
Look to him for your strength and hope
He’ll give you peace and help you to cope.

Each time you feel you need me there
Listen carefully, and my voice you’ll hear.
You’ll always know what I would say
Remember, I’m always for you, come what may.

Until you come to join me here,
Keep my love in your heart and I’ll be near.
I love you more than words can say
And will hold you in my arms again one day.

thank you

to my best friend....
how can i thank you for what you are to me?
i can say anything and it feels so free.
you're always there with a hug and a smile,
never judging, you love me all the while.
you always feel me and know what to say
made me laugh when i should have cried today
a simple word made my fears retreat
the friendship of a soulmate
makes life sweet :)

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